I’ve almost decided Blogging isn’t my thing. I keep trying and I keep wanting to blog, but it’s never at the top of my priority list. I have to wonder if 2013 will be the same or if I will find a new love in sharing my life in this manner.
A friend asked me today “what’s your word for 2013?” My answer: no clue. I’ve thought about it, but no one word or phrase has jumped out at me as one I want to use to guide my year. I looked back to this time last year and I re-read my blog post. wow! while reading it, I remembered how frustrated and tired and overwhelmed I was feeling; how I felt like too many people had strings pulling me in as many directions.
My goals for 2012 were personal and my word (phrase really) was self compassion. It did a world of good for me. I did not make art, I did not lose weight, I did not…. Nor did I allow myself to get caught up in the “I should’s”. I concentrated on the “I want to’s”.
I allowed myself time to enjoy friends and family and to embrace the efforts I did make and I took the time to enjoy the process of living. I feel so much more refreshed, more alive, happier, than I did one year ago. I feel more connected to those important people in my life. I’ve been able to remind myself that those who truly want to be a part of my life will be. I’ve stopped chasing those who say they want to be, but never show up.
So, here at the end of 2012, I find myself in a much happier and healthier place emotionally and psychologically. And I find myself asking ‘what goals do I want to meet in 2013′? where do I want to be? what do I want to be doing? and Who do I want to be doing it with?
I will be spending the last few days of 2012 thinking about these questions and figuring out what my guiding word will be.